Sometimes we all need a little space. Space to think, time to adjust, time to understand. But sometimes a little space isn’t what is needed. Sometimes you just need a clean break.
Life can be overbearing at times. I feel like it is especially so for me. I know that it is all perspective, and I know that there are so many more people out there who have it worse. Everyone needs an escape, a place or thing to help them take a break. Mine used to be reading, sometimes writing. Which I guess that is what this is. Sometimes I go on walks. But Rexburg is too cold this time of year for walks. That is okay though because I also use music and friends.
The problem with using friends as an escape is, that sometimes you need an escape from that too. Feelings are hard, relationships are harder. That’s why I am not in one. But I wanted to be. I really wanted to be with this person. But they don’t want to be with me. Which is okay, like I can’t blame someone for not feeling something. That isn’t fair to them. But I wish that people would remember that sometimes cutting off contact is good, but there has to be some resolution before the contact is cut off. Maybe that is just for me. Maybe he doesn’t need that. But when you are going to be seeing that person in social groups…. it would help to have a clean break.
I lived a Lie for Too Long 